I love God. That's really hard to say. It makes people feel awkward and uncomfortable and not really know how to act. I even feel that way saying it (or even just typing it). I've experienced a lot in the last two months here in Guam, but the one thing I have been doing the most searching for is God. I've gone to several different denominational Bible studies and churches, and I've prayed a lot; and I've cried even more. But through all of the turmoil I seem to have put myself in over the past couple months, with trying to figure out this whole "faith" thing, I've come to the conclusion that God is simply amazing. He gave me my life, not to live vicariously for myself, but to live for Him, and to show His glory through my life. I've also decided that, as of now, I truly am a Catholic. I feel so at home in the Catholic church. I also believe, however, that knowledge is the greatest and strongest thing we can acquire, and I want to expand my knowledge about Catholicism and also other religions so that I can make an educated decision on where my faith belongs, and what church I will call home. I find calling a church home hard, too. I don't think God let Jesus die on the cross for our sins so that we as humans could create an institution. Jesus wants to have a relationship with us, not some political corporation. But on the flip side of that, I still find church very important; because, for me, it gives me a place to share in the works of the Lord with other people. I know I still have a long way to go and a lot to learn and probably even more things that are going to frustrate me, but that's why God has put so many amazing people in my life to help me along the way. And I hope I can help some people, too.
I know what people think when someone talks about God: "Bible thumper." They're gonna be all up in my face about God and about how their religion is best. I highly dislike those people. It are the subtle people in life that praise God but don't boast about it that make me want to be a daughter of God. People like my mom, dad, and especially, my friend Meghan O'Connor. They have all shown me how amazing God can be and how to let Him into my life without needing to stop being Maggie.
I'm afraid this enthusiasm for God is going to fade with time, and with my move back home. But I have faith that God will keep me on fire for Him so I can shine His light!
Whoa. I'm even freaked out by everything I just wrote. This is a huge leap of faith for me.
To each their own. To me: God.